As today progressed I found myself seeking solitude and an inner place to be... not much for the social thing today. quiet aloneness is a good thing. Listened to sw's latest update from her trip... she sounds kind of removed herself. I know when I crossed the country it was a cleansing experience... 6 days alone... to think, ponder, dream, and look forward to a new life... I wish her good vibes.
i wonder how much of this removed feeling is caused by my isolation from the Maine community? considering I haven't been touched in a play/scene mode in over 1 1/2 years now... I sometimes wonder if maybe it wouldn't be worth it to go to NJ just to have ML & sb beat the crap out of me? To once again feel that bliss of flying... I don't really know where I am right now... just kind of here... I find myself seeking my fetish play more and more which isn't a good sign.... last time that happened I bottomed out big time.... maybe I should chat with ML...
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If you don't ask, you can't get.
Master Larry
While this is true... when there is no one around that is trustworthy in a play situation... asking becomes futile.
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