A time to reflect

Whew... finally a chance to sit back and reflect on the last couple of days...
I should start by announcing that I have been accepted in the Household of Master Larry and slave barb. We are on a three month "trial" time with no contract - kind of a getting to know you period. It's odd how different I feel this go-around... in the past I was hard-pressed to keep the information to myself until directed to release the info... this time I find no need for a formal "outting" ... the important people know and that's all that matters... Maybe the "ego" work that I've been doing has hit home... just a thought! It in no way means that I am not ecstatic about being in service to a wonderful pair of people. Master Larry is awesome... patient and accepting of who I am... slave barb is loving and fun! I look forward to our relationship growing and expanding as the time progresses... May the Universe guide us as we journey together!

On a personal note... I am feeling much better after dealing with a week of a sinus infection. I am back to being me! now comes the challenge of catching up the things I set aside to get some rest... fun, fun, fun! I'm getting kind of bummer about not hearing from sw... but I guess I'm not alone... sc hasn't heard from her either. Maybe it's just a way to separate from the NE area...

I'm all registered and set up (profile done) for the Master/slave Conference in DC... I'm looking forward to the conference... being in service will add a wonderful twist to the feeling of the conference!

MAsT! Oi What do I do with MAsT??? Even after sending out a questionnaire I have only received 3 back!!! I guess it's going down the tubes... I can't keep bankrolling it if they decide to move it to another location... guess I'll just have to sit back and see what happens!

Since I'm awake...

Guess since I'm not seeing sleep in my future I might as well blog! Lots of stuff going on but most of it is being shuffled to the side until I can clear up this sinus infection... everything is just beginning to bloom around here... I'm sure that's what is causing it...

Well, our MAsT Directors MC and sw are no longer Maine residence... MC left on tuesday for Connecticut to drop the boat off the drew... i'm glad they are keeping it in the family...

Chats are going well with ML and sb... I finished the essay sent it off today!

The Family

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Mom & Dad, me, Anne & Steve, Robert, Holly, Elysia, Ben, Aline, Kathleen and Madaline - taken at Sears on 4-5-08

Touchpoints

While looking for a choir resource book I came across a book called "Touchpoints" and thought that it would be a good topic for a blog.... Then I started to think about what would go into such a blog... hmmm not as much as I originally thought but I'm going to explore it anyway!

What are some touchpoints in my life that have made a difference? sw has given me many touchpoints... time to sit back and review what I believe and question those points of interest that I'm not quite sure about... but with sw's past work schedule and recent departure I find I miss those check ins... but to my surprise and pleasure ML has stepped up and started questioning what I write about... I love the idea that someone cares enough to do that and to offer their thoughts and feelings on topics that I bring up.

Another "touchpoint" for me was last week. We had an family gathering all 12 of us in one house... while it was chaotic the reconnections that were strengthened and the new connections that were formed were well worth the chaos. But through all the chaos came a lesson... for as much as I love my family I love the quiet Zen of the house when all are gone. As ML pointed out there is a time and place for chaos and a reson to be found in it. All in all the gathering was great! I look forward to seeing them again in August!

Speaking of August... the Master/slave conference is right around the corner... I will be registering for it on Friday when I get paid! WooHoo!!! I haven't been out there to see what's going on yet ... I wonder if there will be any piercing? hmmmmm...... I'll chat with MC to see if he is going....

MAsT is this weekend... I'm sorry to see it fall apart just because sw is gone and MC is planning to leave too... I'm not sure what else I can do to keep it going.... again the apathy of Maine steps up to the plate! ARGHHH!!!!

The zen returns

As life slowly returns to the zen I so love I find myself looking back on posts that I put out during the zenless days. Such rants as the one I placed on bornslave concerning a Masters thoughts on a slaves diet (that being his feeding his slave "scraps" and "food ready for the garbage"... then he later states that he is thinking about putting his slave on a dog food diet... I just snapped! Much to my surprise my post was well received and agreed with... I guess sometimes speaking up is a good thing! The second post I looked back on was placed here and called "When the zen is gone". I asked some big questions at the end... and to my surprise again the response from ML was not was I was expecting... but instead a response from a caring MASTER that is not out to change who I am but instead willing to learn who I am and utilize my every strength and passion... then ML brought up a good point... "Does M/s have a gender?" - wow... there is a deep thought! and one that I will be thinking about and writing about soon...

So as I come back to being a zen person with zen surroundings I will be reading more and stressing less...

I love my family but I love my zen too!

When the Zen is gone...

Wow... I never really knew or had felt what it was like to have the zen attitude of the house ripped out abruptly! cloves an we say Reality Shock? last Thursday Anne and Steve arrived... it was nice with just the two... last Friday Ben, Aline, Kathleen, Madaline and Missy arrived... Saturday Robert, Holly and Elysia arrived.... and the bedlam ensued! Three have left (Roberts family), Alines is planning on leaving Thursday (working on it being Wednesday) and Anne & Steve leave Sunday Morning... Monday we regroup and pass out!!! Then comes the job of regrouping and returning zen to the household.... (I now know why I don't have kids).

I have been keeping up with Tai Chi... meditation is hard because of the stress level of the house... I have yet to find a way to quiet the spirit when the zen is gone... any and all suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

I started receiving responses to my questions to my close friends... Honest - yes, positive - 60/40 , thought provoking - most definitely. Can a person that loves the quiet, loves the classics, and isn't big on constant motivation able to be integrated into the opposite? Can a gay male be fulfilled in a household with a Bi Master and slave couple?

A lot to think about!

we're ready!

At least I think we are!!! the house is clean top to bottom... the shopping is done.... the catering order is in and the Baptism is ready to go... Did I forget anything??? Oh my sanity! yup lost that! LOL... Heard back from ML concerning the request... OMG! he agreed... Please remind me to take this SLOW... SLOW BOY SLOW!!!

That will be easy for the next week... with a total of 12 people moving in I doubt I'll have the time to do too much... but I will continue meditation and Tai Chi... I'll need the peace and quiet.

Finally got my IPod loaded up with music, pictures... and a couple of gay porn videos... just for me!
I love that little thing ... why didn't someone tell me to get one earlier??? (cough, cough) lol...

Now to bed!... early day tomorrow... they are delivering the new water cooler, 4 - 5 gal jugs of water and 3 cases of bottled water.... woo hoo!!!