been fun... time to go....

Guess I'm just not as young as I used to be... These two kids are wearing real thin... Only 7 more days till I get dropped off at the conference and then one more day after till I fly home to the peace and quiet!

Early in the week I'm hoping to get together with sc, SS & MJ for some chat... a lot depends on schedules...

today was a site seeing day out to Chrystal City and the Pentagon tomorrow will be a quiet regrouping day to get Aline packed.. this is also true for the weekend... It will be so nice to have her gone!

I'm looking forward to serving face to face at the conference... and hopefully having some one-on-one time with Master to talk and just be...

A lot to look forward to!

back to normality???

What is Normal??? Well at least we made it back to somewhat of a normal routine... the yard is cleaned up, the house is cleaned up, the dishes done and everything put away where it belongs... that's about as normal as it can get right now...

As much as I love those little girls I'll be glad when the 4th gets here and they go home and quiet can rule once again!

I look forward to the end of the week/beginning of next when I can see sc and SS for some time... it will be a great chance to catch up with them both! and then the end of the week is a relocation to Silver Springs for the conference! WOOHOO!

How to survive a 2 year olds B-day 101...

RUN AND HIDE!!!! what more can I say... the day started out at 4am with a great meditation... so good I fell asleep! woke up at 7am... remembering that Sir requested a wake up call... at 8am... so I thought... WRONG! it was 8:30am... then off to get the jumpy thing for the party.... got it up and running only to have it burn the extension cord and trip the breaker... so off to the hardward store to get a 12 gauge extension... $100.00 later... got it up and running! Then after blowing up 60+ balloons and transforming the backyard into a circus themed party... the guests arrived... 15 kids under age 12 and 8 adults... OMG! thank you universe for not blessing me with children! I'm not cut out for this and I am just plain TOO OLD!

Too long of a day...

Today feel like it has been a 48 hour day all squished into one! Tomorrow is the Big birthday bash ... for a two year old! I'll be glad when it's done and we can rest! Mentally I'm exhausted... but in a good way... spiritually I'm charged... meditation this morning was so peaceful! what a great way to start the day... Physically I'm here... wishing I was home in my comfy bed and zen-like surroundings... but that will come soon... bedlam is good for the soul... I think!

Where the center is...

An interesting turn of events today came when trying to finish the cooking... for the morning I tried real hard to regroup myself and find that centered place that I find so comfortable... but in a different household with a different energy, with a different time pattern can this be accomplished so quick... what I found is that time, place, energy and everything else outside of my being doesn't actually affect my core/center... what does affect it is my response to those things... once I realized that and put it into practice my inner being settled right back into that comfort place....

So all in all my afternoon went much better... Tomorrow we do the final prep for the 2 foot peanuts 2nd birthday party on Saturday!

Meditation will be a lot better tomorrow! (now that the monkey mind is put to bed!)

A pause in the storm

I guess the title can pertain to the weather... which is why this is short and sweet (we are still under tornado watches, high winds and heavy rains... and the stress level in the house... I don't want to get in to particulars here... but suffice it to say that my niece really needs to go home... NOW!!! I love her dearly but don't like her right now at all...

Well the thunder and lightening are back so I need to sign off...

for those that believe in a higher being... please ask and send calm thoughts to the Jackson household...

Thanks!

a need to recenter

I really didn't think that being on vacation would mess up my being centered... but OMG! maybe it's because it's only day one here... but I feel out of sorts...

I'm taking some major time tonight to try to get back to a centered spirit ...

In Woodbridge

We're Here!!! What a busy day... starting at 2:30am - a trip to the airport... checked in... and was able to upgrade to business class... big seats, great leg room... and it was 16 minutes ahead of schedule getting in... then finally for a brunch at denny's!

Back to the house for a restful afternoon then out to dinner! It will be a very early night!
But glad to be here finally!!!

Next stop Woodbridge VA!

This is my last post from here in Maine... tomorrow morning at 4am we pick up Marc who will bring us to the airport in Portland to fly out! We are flying Transair at 6:30am and getting to DC a little past 8am... just in time for breakfast!

I do have to admit these past couple of weeks have been a bear in more ways than one... but now things are all on track and I can enjoy some vacation time... much over due I might add!

So I leave Maine with the knowledge that it will be here when I get back ... and life will go on!


See you in DC!

It's here!

It's hard to believe that the trip is hear... we fly out Monday morning... my lists are complete and everything is ship shape and prepared here for our departure...

My mind right now is what Master Steve would call... Monkey mind... I have 50 thousand lists flying through my head making sure everything has a check mark next to it... the trick is to not allow it to get the better of me... I know I've covered all bases the best I could... what is done is done!

a thought about serving....

As we travel through the highs and lows of our journeys certain things just hit us and make us question... Today I was asked if as a slave I served... hmmm... it made me think... isn't asking a slave if they served like asking a human if they breath? Isn't serving what we are programmed to do? isn't that what drives us?

What if I didn't serve? besides being an empty shell with no goal to life what would I be? Mr. S gave me a lot to think about during our morning chat... is not M/s a grasping and holding on to the past? If it is... why do we hold on to it? why don't we just conform to the human race and go forward and not grasp the past as we do? In his explanation he regarded it a the general population traveling on interstate 95... but we as M/s opt to travel on Rt 1 instead... it get's us to the same place... Our own inner enlightenment... just in a different way...

What a great thought! thanks Mr. S!

A glimps ahead...

today was one of those days of looking ahead at what's to come... sometimes that's a good thing... sometimes not.

I started out the day with a wonderful coffee breakfast with MS... it's been way too long since we've done that. and it all came with a great chat! deep insight into the dealings of life and the M/s world... he should write a book... The BDSM - Master/slave philosophy according to S! A sure best seller!

Came home to finish up the housework... (which is now done with the exception of the kitchen floor - on plan to be done tomorrow) - then to the meeting with my Pastor over my pays... I have to admit I was ready for this one... I was about 15 minutes early... I sat in the conference room and spread out my stuff.... Leather folder w/white note pad - black ball point pen at the ready... copies of my old, proposed and new contracts and my revised time slips, bottled water, cell phone and keys... in a nice neat box surrounding me as I faced the chair Father always sits in.... He walked in at 4 past 4:00pm, I greeted him and we began out chat... 20 minutes later I was walking out... he accepted the proposal as written and will have 2 of 4 checks for me tomorrow! AMEN! oh... and I will be getting my own set of keys upon my arrival home!

Then Dinner with MA at the house and he brought his dog Sophie with him.... she is just so cute! He's not so bad either! :0 :D

Tonight I am tired....

woohoo! 5

Today was a great day! low humidity and plenty of work to be done... Started a new routine with ML today... an extra midday check in... doesn't look like it's gonna be much of a problem...

There really isn't much to chat about...

Day 6

Lot's o stuff going on today... mailing out our cloths to my sister, finalizing the house care folks, meetings and a bunch of cleaning... it was a great day...

I have a meeting on Thursday at 4:00pm with the Pastor concerning my pay! Woohoo... this will be interesting... Let's see how he tries to wiggle himself out of this one... I will go in with my usual professional self (of course my details are all documented and ready to go) and see what he has to say.

Also on thursday I'm going to do a morning breakfast with Mr. S! I've been so looking forward to seeing him and chatting the morning away... we both miss doing that! Looks like we may do That great coffee shop in Falmouth... by staples... Crap! forgot the name of the place.... HELP!

LOL.... till later!

One week and counting!

by this time next week I will be in Woodbridge VA enjoying a well deserved vacation... and looking forward to the M/s conference next month!

as time closes in so does the amount of work that goes into the preparations... the house will be cleaned this week, the lawns manicured the flowers prepped for two weeks and everything else battened downed for whatever may come.... the police have been notified, the paper stopped, the water delivery stopped, the mail on hold, the friends keeping the place up have been notified and given instructions and keys... and in my spare time I cleaned the entire upstairs! whew.... its been a day!

Headspace=Slavespace

I've come back to the realization that being in the headspace of slavery is where I belong... having a Master that cares enough about his family to call just to make sure that their head and heart are back where they belong... and that all is on the mend... helps keep me there... this place of comfort, security and safety is where I need to be right now...

Today was a great day all around... the weather was perfect (even the wind) - and the alone time I had gave me time to clear the cobwebs and refocus on where I am...

At this time next week I will be finishing up packing my computer and electronics to travel... we fly out monday morning at 6:34! DC HERE I COME!

a day of letting go...

It was a hard day to deal with today... burying a man that I never really got to know... but taught me how to touch a persons soul... let me explain:
they was an elderly man that sat on the same side of the church (that I play at) as the organ... he sat in the back pew ... he arrived at 3:30pm every saturday... he and his wife... he would come early for mass (at 4:00pm) to listen to what he called the "concert"... those 20 minutes before mass where I just played organ suites or vocal pieces... I could always hear him singing along when I did pieces like the Ave Maria and "Mother at thy feet is kneeling"... He loved my music... 4:00pm Mass was hard seeing his empty seat in the back of the church... but I know in my heart that he was there listening... Rest in peace Roy!

On the home front... my date last night SUCKED!! just not what I was looking forward too... It just goes to show how one persons attitude can control a room!

I'm doing well... keeping my head above water... which is a good thing!

:)

LOL... Yes Virginia... there is a .........

MOXIE FESTIVAL!!! Yup that's right folks.... now for the million dollar question... who knows what MOXIE is?

Well of course anyone that has spent any amount of time in good old Maine will know that it is a soft drink... Pepsi... no.... coke... not even close... let's call it a cross between Dr. Pepper and Mountain Dew... tastes more like cough medicine to me... but is great to cook with... adds a licorice taste to things including (but not limited to...) cakes, muffins, ice cream, chicken marinade... and a slew of other things... but to drink straight up... not for me!!!

This weekend is the 25th anniversary celebration of Moxie... hers a history clip about it:

Make Mine Moxie Maine's Moxie Lives On

If you're not from New England, chances are you may not have heard of Moxie or know about this soft drink's connection to Maine and New England.

Moxie is a sweet yet "distinctively different" soft drink that at one time outsold Coke and Pepsi in America. Today it's bottled by the Monarch Beverage Company. Monarch sells a great deal of Moxie here in New England.

Moxie was the brainchild of Dr. Augustine Thompson. The good doctor marketed the original concoction as a patent medicine in 1876 in Lowell, Massachusetts. Dr. Thompson was a native of Union, Maine and to this day Union is famous for being the birthplace of Moxie.

The early version of Moxie was a spoon fed elixir that could supposedly cure a wide range of ills ranging from dementia to impotence.

Moxie has been modified several times since then. In 1884 Moxie was reformulated, repackaged and re-introduced to America as a carbonated soft drink. Sales soared, and according to "Maine Farmhouse Journal" Moxie was America's most popular soft drink right up to the early 1920's.

Today, early Moxie bottles and Moxie advertising pieces are collectors' items and probably worth considerably more than they originally cost. Former Red Sox slugger Ted Williams endorsed the product and his tins and advertising signs have become quite collectible.

There's even an annual Moxie Festival, and a Moxie Musuem has been proposed. Several books have been written about Moxie, including The Moxie Mystique. The mystery today may be in finding a can of Moxie. Ask your favorite beverage store if you're having trouble buying some.

Most Moxie drinkers will tell you that Moxie is an acquired taste. The flavor is, as the can says, "distinctively differerent". We suggest you try some for yourself. You'll be experiencing a taste of living Americana.

- Richard Rock for MELiving.com

Enjoy!

a better day...

I'm in a much better place today... I received a Staples refund check today that paid for my camos... so I ordered them right away... and with the travel date only a week and 4 days away I had the order sent to my sisters!... WOOHOO!

I also stayed up till 12:45 this morning and accomplished a lot of the open projects that I had... I fell a sleep and was up at 4am for meditation and it was great! One unplanned thing was accomplished today also... the south side of the house now has a new stone drip line... it looks so sharp!

I've been in a much better place hearing from sw ... it's been a long time... hearing from her brought back a lot of the feelings I had when I relocated to California... displacement, lack of a Master, a lack of anything that I found as a comfort zone... I moved looking for greener pastures... and found dirt... so I moved back and planted my own green lawn... now I have a garden to be proud of! The Universe will indeed give you what you need to be where you belong...

Be open to the universe - she knows better!

the good the bad and the ugly...

The good... It was a picture perfect day! beautiful weather, good company and shopping for mom! what could be better...

The bad... I fell into a contemplative state today that doesn't have me in a good place...

the ugly... The amount of work facing me right now is unbelievable!!! I may have to cancel a play date in order to complete everything on time... guess I'll have to see what happens...

back to work!

the animal within

While reading Jack Rinella's "Philosophy of the dungeon", I read about awaking the animal within... it's a lot to take in... but I do understand the theology behind it... within each of us is a totem being that comes around during great emotional releases (or at least that is where I've see it so far). I can honestly say that I've only had a glimps of the animal that I have within me... and from the moments that I remember it scares me... just the thought of having a spirit animal that is part of my core being is just a lot to comprehend... I have already started looking for reading material on the topic of totem animals and spirit animals.

Any suggestions on the topic would be greatly appreciated!

an important day ruined....

July 4th... an important day in our history... too bad more people don't even know about it.... during the news they interviewed 100 people... the question - What does Independence Day mean to you - 18 people answered with something about celebrating our freedom and liberty... 18 people!!! the rest said parties, food, day off, family get togethers, a drinking day, pool parties, going to the camps... and the like! What is happening to the history of this country? Is that where we are headed?

I'm scared!

Music Genres

I was transferring some music Master sent me as part of a project... and as I watched it run I watched the genre column fill up with different labels for different types of music and it got me to thinking about all the labels we place on things... for example... why can't we just call it MUSIC... no instead we have classical, jazz, pop, rock, ambient, alternative, acid, hard core, whatever! but isn't it all MUSIC? The same goes along with what we do in our every day life... we no longer have cars... we have Oldsmobiles, GMs, Jaguars and Jeeps... when will it end?

a spiritual moment...

Today has been a contemplative day for me... thinking a lot about how my spirituality and faith drive my desire to serve... I find when serving my focus doesn't lessen but widens to include everything Master is to me... the same happens with my daily meditation - the more my mind is cleared of the daily stuff the more I can focus on what Master means to me...

It's interesting how the two coincide with each other... the key for me seems to be a calm, relaxed spirit and a focus on service... both of which lead me to better understand Master and all that he is to me.

That's the third time I say that... maybe I should explain it more... what does Master mean to me? It's a big topic... he's more than the usual responses to what a Master is... he is a confidant, a safe place, a haven... I'm sure as time goes on that feeling will deepen and grow...