A busy week and a busy day! Moving looks closer and close each day! I am so looking forward to this change! Things are going ok here at the house... stress levels are a bit high but not high enough to worry about.... they've been a lot worse... Master and sb are in Dallas for SPLC... oh how I'd love to be with them right now!!! I do hope they take time to have fun... they deserve it! well... time to get ready for church! and the pending snow storm coming in! ARGH!

wow... it's been a while... not sure why... I know why! Monday was the storm... power outage and all that fun stuff...tuesday was shoveling at church, funeral at 11 and decorating for lent after... today was Ash Wednesday mass, an 11am funeral and errands after.... ARGH! busy busy busy!!! anyway... things are going... forward I do believe! not much else to say... except... happy ash wednesday... 40 days to Easter

Ever just sit and wonder how many lives you touch in a day? I tried that today... I stopped at 500... ya... it is interesting how just waking up and telling someone "good morning" has a ripple effect... I played mass at 4pm tonight... a little over 300 people touched in some way by my music... while driving I stopped for some people at a crosswalk... they thanked me for stopping... the people in the store that I went to... that I said hi to... the smiles I got back... what an awesome thought that me... the slave from Maine... could affect so many lives... even tonight while chatting with a friend in London... who needed a little TLC... just my telling him a bed time story... made his day better... such a small thing...

It's been a few days since my last post... time, work, packing and house repairs got in the way of deep philosophical thought... but through all the work and all the hubub my service to Master stood strong ... I found that taking "Master time" - sitting quiet with the blue HSL candle burning... is just enough to remind me that what I am doing is for one special person... Master! What a wonderful reason to be!

Today I post a thought from my dearest friend and slave sister...

"If you stop to be kind you must swerve often from your path - keep swerving friend!"

gives one a lot to think about doesn't it...

Sunday in my week review that I do for Master, I spouted off about some stuff dad has been doing... Let me start from the top...

We've been packing and fixing things up in preparation of the move... so I've been doing a lot of hole patching, painting, repairs... things like that... Well dad, being the overly helpful type that doesn't tend to finish what he does or do finish work... decided that the guest bedroom closet needed to be taken apart and re-built! even though it didn't! So he pulled out 4 shelves and relocated the cloths hanging bar... up about 15 inches... well... we live in a house built in 1911 ... the house has settled... (when we moved in in '76 we jacked up the second floor 2 1/2 inches... ya... it settled! lol... over time things were built with the crookedness in thought... door jams are not 90 degrees anymore... so in putting things back in he decided to use a level to put it in... well.. ya just can't do that... you open the door and visually it was a mess...

He just doesn't see that doing things like that make selling this place even harder... it's all rush rush rush with him... so after a discussion of doing things slow and right the first time... I took all of sunday to pull everything out and redo it correctly...

Which leads me to something Master wrote back... on how babies need our time and attention... then they grow to teens... they then need attention... but don't want to have to ask for it... then they get older... and no longer need the attention... but as time progresses... that need for attention returns...

While I could have blasted dad out of the water and yelled and belittled him... I keep in my mind that he is my father... no matter how forgetful, no matter how biggoted and no matter how hurtful he can be and sometimes is... he is still my father and deserves that respect...

So it seems that life truly does go in a big circle... and we travel that circle at different rates... but we travel it together ... and hopefully with respect for the other travelers!

"Fidelity": Don't Divorce... from Courage Campaign on Vimeo.


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A day for me? I was ordered to take a day for me... and yet I seemed busier than if I had done the usual... lol.. it don't figure - what was very different was that I was out of the house enjoying the weather and accomplishing small things like a trip to LL Beans... a shopping trip to s. portland with a stop at whole foods in portland... then a trip to the bank and then some cooking fun... it ended up a fun day as a whole and was nice to just get out of the house and away from the computer... a welcome change! My next "vacation" will be sunday into monday February 22nd to the 23rd up at the lodge... This week will be a busy one with the holiday on monday!

To everyone that reads this... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Fetishes galore! Just for the fun of it today I decided to look at fetishes ... so being a Virgo I started with a list... I was somewhat surprised at the list that just flowed on the paper... I then went back and rated them 1 for not important to 10 very important...

one of the things I found was what I considered a fetish... some may not consider some of my items a fetish... again a situation of we all have our own levels of fetish...

While I know that we are all friends here and that this is a private blog... I don't totally feel comfortable listing everything here... but here are a few:
Leather, PVC, Chain, whips, paddles, being naked, gentle touches, rope, suspension of all kinds!, electricity, ice... ok... that's as far as I'm going here... lol...

But for the fun of it my friends... do this little project... learn about yourself!

On slavery and individuality....

Interesting topic ... I somehow got to thinking about this today amidst the craziness that is work and life... I've been in contact with some special slave friends over the past couple of weeks... not for any particular reason just to connect... some of my slave friends contacted me and I in turn contacted others... what led me to blog was the need I have settled in to for networking amongst slaves... how we feed off each other and support each other in times of need... what a wonderful thing to see! But then I wonder how a Master, Lord, Sir or Dominant sees a networking such as this? Could it make Him/Her uneasy and a bit scared of the slave not needing the Master as much due to the contact with the network?

Some good topics of discussion... is a slave to give up or lessen the connectivity of the slave network to solely focus on the Master? Do Masters knowingly and/or unknowingly busy their slaves so that they don't have the time to network with other slaves? Could the slaves opening up to transparency with their Master also open the slave to a need to belong?

There's a lot of "stuff" going on right now so focusing on one thing or one topic is hard... just a few fleeting thoughts...
Ideas on Death and dying - Thoughts on fetishes - thoughts on commitments - thoughts on moving - thoughts on jobs - thoughts on parents - thoughts on obedience - thoughts on service.... many thoughts... not enough time to write...

More on this later!

looks like the weekend will be as busy as the week has been. I have a 9am funeral in Sabattus and an 11am funeral at Holy Trinity... a quick lunch then back to church for Mass... Sunday I have a logo meeting at 9:30am... then a quick print job to do for Monday... My room has been fully patched and is awaiting a sanding... the kitchen has been patched along with the den... I have the living room to finish the living room and hall... As soon as I get my income tax refund I'll get paint and start the painting... I'm lucky that next week is a slow week on the work front... the the basic stuff and payroll... the rest will be spent with with house duties...

Where have I been all this mess? Amazingly stable! I've learned a lot about myself... not too long ago the stress of everything going on would have push me to a breaking point but through anger management practices I've been able to refocus the stress into organized chaos!... lol I mean organized service... and yes my humor still plays a huge roll in my keeping stable...

It's wonderful how free one feels when cleaning out! Today I was able to get rid of 2 large green garbage bags of shredded paper work from 1985 to 2003 - lots of bank stuff and private information... I also cleaned out another full bag of non shredded stuff that could just go... all my other miscellaneous paper work has been filed and ready to travel! the basement is packed and ready to go ... the glassware is out on big metal racks ready to be packed... and all is looking good... I am about half way done the house inventory book... a little over 400 pictures all with descriptions... what a monumental undertaking that thing is!!! In the sorting I have come across many small things that bring s back wonderful memories! Oh! and the best thing... I might have a buyer for the Graphic Arts business... there is still a lot to discuss and legal stuff to wade through along with discussing the whole thing with my business partner.... from my point of view it would be a major asset to my partner to accept the proposal... he would come out ahead and much more satisfied on the financial side of things... not much else going on... tonight I continue to sort and pack!

It's been a very long and busy day starting at 4am with a wake up call to the Master... and just now (9:30pm) slowing down enough to even put a random though on the blog page... but it is nice to see the many bags of shredding and garbage ready to go... life has been good ... I have no complaints... the taxes are done and the return is good... a lot better than I expected... even with the home business! So I am off to get some sleep!