Needs, desires, Wants, Wishes.... all part of belonging to... ever think of it in those terms? I have been... I've found that belonging to someone and being a part of something carries its own set of wants, desires, needs and wishes... I had always thought that my needs and desires would be the same... lol... wrong! each relationship brings it's own package of stuff with it...

feeling kinda down today... lots going on with the house and the business and everything else ... It's hard to focus on things... but I am finding that some needs need to be met... zen, quiet and space are some that I've been avoiding... and it's not a good thing!

a quiet down day! lots of good stuff happening...moving is happening soon! looking forward the change and the challenge... Jobs are looking better and better and that feels good... the move is on track and the house is almost ready to sell... things are looking good! and that's a real good thing!

not with the program today feeling yucky... but had to forget it and just push through... and now I'm feeling the effect.... gonna tack something to settle the stomach and then a good nights sleep... tomorrow will be better!

Time.... where has it gone? now that the funeral is over and everyone has gone home and the house is somewhat back to normal... we are heading back on track of painting and packing... I took a couple of days to just regroup from the hubbub... but I'm back ... The house has been appraised and it came in a bit lower than expected but it's still on the good side.... 156,000.... so now to finish the refinancing and the house will officially be on the market! The official move is scheduled for the end of April! wish us luck.... we're gonna need it!

been a while since I posted... a lot happening around here in the past couple of days... we are now prepping the house for an inspection on Tuesday and Realtor walk through next Thursday.... so a lot of storage, cleaning, staging and other things have taken over every part of me.... because now is the time for uber organization... and thats a trick when you have two parents throwing stuff in boxes! lol

But I look forward to the next few day.... the final days of winter.... soon spring and all it's wonders.... the newness of life and that special green that you see only once a year.... and with the grace of the universe a new start for me, mom and dad!

Applications, job, interviews, resumes, applying.... ARGH!!!! ok... it's not that bad... in fact it's kind of fun! just thinking about te change of pace and a steady paycheck... that's even better!

Been working on a project for Master and SS... 1999 trivia! woohoo! music, movies, fads, headline news... clothing... you name it! it's fun!

Been reading a few slave-only groups for insight on topics... what I've found is that the majority of slave still feel that there is a "goal" to be reached... someone always "better than" that should be emulated... when I read these I am always brought back to a saying by Judy Garland... "Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else."

In short - stop trying to be something your not... be human... be proud of being a human... enjoy your life as a slave - be honest and transparent and lastly ... enjoy what life brings you!

a new phone .... a new phone.... woohoo!!! got me a Samsung alias... multi flip... can flip like a standard phone then like a text phone... has a full keyboard... no more multi clicking.... I love it so far! takes getting used to...

not much else going on... except that Master and slave sis are home from SPLC! safe and sound! yays!!! maybe next year can go with them....