I guess it's time to let you all know what is going on...

You've read the poems... you've felt the hurt and pain that I have been feeling. Finally the pain was realized...

On sunday October 11th at approximately 2pm Master Larry released me.

The reason... exactly what I have been feeling... his work and life got in the way of what he chose as life... he felt it was unfair to keep me on when he can't be there as Master...

I knew it was coming... I could feel it... so I was prepared... but it didn't make the hurt any less... One year and 6 months is a long time...

I still hurt, there is still a lot of pain... but time will heal...

We will probably never understand
all of life's disappointments,
but each disappointment is a chance
to draw closer to yourself -
find your own strengths,
and realize that you can make it
even when the dream shatters.
You begin to see that when one dream ends,
you can always begin to dream again -
and for as long as you can dream,
you can find new places in life,
set new goals, and build a new and
more solid foundation, with new and
better expectations of what life can offer...

With each disappointment you can
better find yourself,
and see more clearly
just how strong a person
you're becoming.

Sharon Davis

One day at a time -
this is enough.
Do not look back
and grieve over
the past
for it is gone;
and do not be troubled
about the future,
for it has not yet come.
Live in the present,
and make it so beautiful
that it will be worth
remembering

Ida Scott Taylor

I know this time in your life
is as confusing for you as it is
exciting.
Before, there was a safe path for
you to follow,
and now suddenly there are unfamiliar
curves,
and you're unsure about which way
to go.
I understand your feelings.

I wish there were something I could
say or do to erase your fears,
to lessen your confusion,
but having been there myself,
I know there isn't.

This time is only a bridge you must
cross to get to the other side.
Once there, you'll look back at this
crossing with smiles and laughter,
and with memories you'll cherish
for the rest of your life.

Meanwhile...

Do whatever you can to
make this time in your life
a time to look back upon
as one of the best.

Nancy Sims

Alone

Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

There are some millionaires
With money they can't use
Their wives run round like banshees
Their children sing the blues
They've got expensive doctors
To cure their hearts of stone.
But nobody
No, nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Now if you listen closely
I'll tell you what I know
Storm clouds are gathering
The wind is gonna blow
The race of man is suffering
And I can hear the moan,
'Cause nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

Maya Angelou

This life is yours
Take the power
to choose what you want to do
and do it well
Take the power
to love what you want in life
and love it honestly
Take the power
to walk in the forest
and be a part of nature
Take the power
to control your own life
No one else can do it for you
Take the power
to make your life happy


Susan Polis Schutz

You are struggling...
I see it,
I feel it,
I hurt for you.
But I must tell you, dear friend,
I believe with all my heart
that you will emerge
somehow wiser, stronger,
and more aware.
Hold on to that thought,
tuck it away in a
corner of your heart
until the hurt melts enough
for the learning to have
meaning.

Sue Mitchell