I head over to Master's after work today for the weekend. I love spending time there if so homelike... so comfortable! didn't get much sleep last night, had to finish the cake... hoping to make it early tonight... but we will see...
not much else going on... except I'm excited about seeing everyone tomorrow!
Mom is home. Got home last night around 5ish... it's nice having her there...
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
5/27/10
schedule for Wednesday:
5:00am at work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm at storage unit to find baking stuff and folding tables
5:30pm Dinner
7:00pm BJ and Giants run
9:30pm bed
HAHAHAHA ROFLMAO
Well I got it all done... and added in spending 2 hours in Emergency with mom... I left at 10pm and they hadn't even seen her yet... around midnight a call came in... dehydration... she got a virus of some kind on Sunday and it just took over.
Today I'm exhausted but I still have a lot of work to do... I need to leave early to get the picture done so I can finish the cake... then prep the 4 containers of strawberries and do the veggie stuffing for the mushroom caps (Ms. Khiki and slave jez should enjoy those!)
Topic for today... wow... I guess it's the nerves that have kicked in due to the weekend... happenings... I know it's the start of a small hill in my journey but the first step seems to be so hard. So many questions - am I ready for this? will it work out? Will if fill the desires? will I meet the expectations of Master? will I meet my expectations?
5:00am at work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm at storage unit to find baking stuff and folding tables
5:30pm Dinner
7:00pm BJ and Giants run
9:30pm bed
HAHAHAHA ROFLMAO
Well I got it all done... and added in spending 2 hours in Emergency with mom... I left at 10pm and they hadn't even seen her yet... around midnight a call came in... dehydration... she got a virus of some kind on Sunday and it just took over.
Today I'm exhausted but I still have a lot of work to do... I need to leave early to get the picture done so I can finish the cake... then prep the 4 containers of strawberries and do the veggie stuffing for the mushroom caps (Ms. Khiki and slave jez should enjoy those!)
Topic for today... wow... I guess it's the nerves that have kicked in due to the weekend... happenings... I know it's the start of a small hill in my journey but the first step seems to be so hard. So many questions - am I ready for this? will it work out? Will if fill the desires? will I meet the expectations of Master? will I meet my expectations?
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
5/26/10
I had a great time at Master Taino's last night, eddy and I finished the deck in about 1 1/2 hours... it looks great!!! met two great guys that stopped over for dinner... woof! to bad they work for the other side :( lol... just a great evening...
Now to the topic of the day:
This is something that I am revisiting because it seems to still be an issue with me... How do I ask for something that I want? I wish I could pinpoint the reason. I find it impossible to ask to be flogged, to be played with, to be touched... After my last chat about this I found that it has to do in part with the way I was raised... simply to not beg for something that I want... it was just something that one didn't do... even now when I get the feeling that I would like a flogging or whatever the feelings of I shouldn't disturb him with such a little thing, he's to busy, what if he has time planned for someone else? I'm not as important as other's in the house... I realize in typing those how silly they may seem but honestly they are real feelings...
I feel like such a looser writing that... the answer is so simple... just ask... I know that in my head... but my heart rules differently. My heart worries about others more than me. I sometimes wonder about the responsibility of the Master in deciding who plays and when the play happens... I have to be honest, I don't know Master well enough to know his feelings and thoughs about this... a learning curve again... I seem to get stuck in the learning curve relationships... lol it sucks! now there is honesty!
ARGH!!! frustrating!
well time to get some work done!
schedule for Wednesday:
5:00am at work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm at storage unit to find baking stuff and folding tables
5:30pm Dinner
7:00pm BJ and Giants run
9:30pm bed
schedule for Thursday:
5:00am work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm Wegmans to get picture printed
3:00pm home - decorate cake
5:30pm dinner
7:00pm finish cake, prep strawberries for saturday
9:00pm gather cloths and stuff for weekend
10:00pm bed
schedule for Friday:
5:00am work - deliver cake
2:00pm leave
2:15pm to Master's for the weekend
slave paul
Now to the topic of the day:
This is something that I am revisiting because it seems to still be an issue with me... How do I ask for something that I want? I wish I could pinpoint the reason. I find it impossible to ask to be flogged, to be played with, to be touched... After my last chat about this I found that it has to do in part with the way I was raised... simply to not beg for something that I want... it was just something that one didn't do... even now when I get the feeling that I would like a flogging or whatever the feelings of I shouldn't disturb him with such a little thing, he's to busy, what if he has time planned for someone else? I'm not as important as other's in the house... I realize in typing those how silly they may seem but honestly they are real feelings...
I feel like such a looser writing that... the answer is so simple... just ask... I know that in my head... but my heart rules differently. My heart worries about others more than me. I sometimes wonder about the responsibility of the Master in deciding who plays and when the play happens... I have to be honest, I don't know Master well enough to know his feelings and thoughs about this... a learning curve again... I seem to get stuck in the learning curve relationships... lol it sucks! now there is honesty!
ARGH!!! frustrating!
well time to get some work done!
schedule for Wednesday:
5:00am at work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm at storage unit to find baking stuff and folding tables
5:30pm Dinner
7:00pm BJ and Giants run
9:30pm bed
schedule for Thursday:
5:00am work
2:00pm leave
2:30pm Wegmans to get picture printed
3:00pm home - decorate cake
5:30pm dinner
7:00pm finish cake, prep strawberries for saturday
9:00pm gather cloths and stuff for weekend
10:00pm bed
schedule for Friday:
5:00am work - deliver cake
2:00pm leave
2:15pm to Master's for the weekend
slave paul
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A new path
This weekend starts a new path for me... Service to Guardian Master Taino... I'm beginning to better understand all that is encompassed in that title. Guide, Mentor, Master, Confidant all rolled into one. For me it's a bit harder, I won't be His slave but instead just in service to... I can honestly say I don't know how that will wash out. It leads to a thread on AOS - can a slave be a slave without a Master? is doing so, is serving the community just pacifying the need and desire to serve? I leave open the door to applying for a slave position in the house... it just won't be for a while... There is still healing to occure... my new vest has been ordered ARGH 4-6 weeks... but that's ok... Marvelous Mayhem does great work and he's pushing it through because it's for Master Taino... $175 isn't too bad either! I look forward to having the large patch on the back and the nametag on the front...
I'm looking forward to seeing the family that I am now a part of... Lord Brick, slave lara, Sir Ross, Lady Lynette & slave llamb, Mistress Mary and slave chris, Master David and slave talilia, Master Jake and slave lara... what a wonderful group! and how can I leave out my brothers... david and matt... I wouldn't be around if it were not for their friendship and support...
well time to get back to work...
I'm looking forward to seeing the family that I am now a part of... Lord Brick, slave lara, Sir Ross, Lady Lynette & slave llamb, Mistress Mary and slave chris, Master David and slave talilia, Master Jake and slave lara... what a wonderful group! and how can I leave out my brothers... david and matt... I wouldn't be around if it were not for their friendship and support...
well time to get back to work...
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