Transparency...
I blogged about this not to long ago... I so want you to know everything... so after much thought I open my book to you... good and bad...
Fetishes... we all have them.. well I do too... well.. it's not only a fetish but a necessity every now and again... About 10 years ago my diabetes hit a low point. The meds they had me one were not working so they kept upping the dosage all the while not knowing or watching what it was doing to my system. The meds were attacking my bladder. It came to a point that I had to wear Depends on a regular basis... I never knew when I would leak. I've since gotten to a point where I can tell the signs of when I either need to get to a bathroom or make sure I'm protected... long trips are a major issue so I've learned to be protected... But then I started going to the M/s conference ... I met Master Skip Chasey as he gave a workshop on the spirituality of fetishes... I then realized that I'm not alone and that being a DL was OK. So after a discussion on the topic with him I decided to delve into my fetish and truly own it and not be embarrassed or scared about it... what I found was when I get stressed or work gets overwhelming I can relax and let go and return to a younger, more intimate time. I don't wear a lot anymore... maybe once or twice every other week or so... but still need to wear when the sugars get messed up... My doctor told me that it probably will never change and I'll need to use some sort of protection from here on out.
Metal... I love metal toys... sounds, surgical steel is the best... I have a set of four - one inch - anal balls, a 2lb ball stretcher with a ball crusher attachment, wortenburg wheel and my newest is a cock lock intruder... it's a cock/ball ring with a metal bar that goes to a 1 inch ball that is inserted in the anus... it goes in deep enough to just touch the prostrate... it is awesome! I love freezing the anal toys... =)
I've been asked why I need fetishes... i have to say that i have fetishes to take me away from life. the stress goes away and i am allowed to relax, enjoy and just flow with whatever happens. Do I need them? well the Depends I do sometimes... but the metal I could go without... but that leave no outlet for escape... something i definitely need every now and again.
I feel that fetishes are a good thing as long as they are not so overbearing that it takes away from who you truly are.
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