Happy Birthday America!
This weekend... wow... I had such a great weekend...
This whole thing is from the heart and the well...
Sir... slave matt told me today to have a good time with the family... without even thinking I responded "I would but my family won't be there" he looked at me funny, I continued "my family will be here... I will be there there with my folks and the others... but my family and home is here...". I didn't even think about it till on the way to Woodbridge. I always feel so at home and under your control there. You offer me so much.
Master... I was so happy when you rebuked me at the party when I said that if your back was bothering you to not worry about flogging me... you said you wanted to and nothing would stop you. It had been 35 days since you last flogged me... since we last spent that powerful exchange of energy. I'm not sure why but you pushed harder this time taking me to a deeper place. I so wanted it to end but you knew better where I needed to be... I don't know how you knew that because a lot of things have changed since we last had a heart to heart. for one full night I stayed awake and spent in meditation. I needed to recenter my thoughts, feelings, ideas, desires and goals... in doing so I hit a meditation on transparency and you words that rang so loud... how I needed to let go of the past... leave the pain and the hurt behind and live in and for today. To remind myself of this I set this as a mantra to be recited each morning...
"Master, I offer my day and my life to you. my slaveheart is yours to Master. May peace and trust reign in our lives today."
Master... the memories will always be there... that goes unsaid... but I have made a conscience decision to rule over them and not allow them to rule over me. I ask if you see me slipping back to old habits that you stop me please.
The time with Master Jake... ummm... WOW!!! comes to mind... That man has an ability to touch me on levels that few have dared approach. Sir, I have endured pain before but nothing like that which Master Jake offered me and yet I felt so safe in his hands. I knew to the depths of my soul that he would not hurt me. What an awesome feeling and all the while he whispered in my ears how it was arousing him and giving him such great pleasure as he grabbed my hands and led them to his crotch where a waiting bulge was... He kissed me gently and continued exploring my body for different places to apply pressure... and so we danced... as the time began to close our session he made a statement that will stay with me for a long while... as he held me in a particularly painful way he whispered so softly in my ear that if I was his slave to use there would be much more happening here than what had taken place. It stopped me short to say the least...As I recovered from the pain I asked where he learned that technique he spent the next 10 minutes telling me the story of his youth and how troubled he was... it was so awesome to hear of the trials and tribulations that he went through. We then spent over a half hour talking about martial arts and it's correlation with the M/s life choice.
Master I must confess that he holds a very dear and special place in my heart and I value that... If he ever asks to spend time with me please know that I would be honored to. If he is ever in need please be open to giving him my contact information .... I would be honored to assist when I how I can.
As the time hits 11:20pm I find that I better be getting to bed for I need to be at your house by 9am :)
Thank you again Master for all you do and for an awesome weekend~
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