a lot going on in my mind lately... but not much to talk about right now... lol ok that made no sense... just like everything that's going on.
To many emotions surrounding Master Jake... I'm so honored... I'm so turned on... I'm so WOW over the play time we had... and yet I'm so confused because of the eroticism and sensuality that he brought to it. Pleased and perplexed...
My meditations this week have run the gambit of self imposed celibacy to transparency in the M/s relationship and back to the what-ifs of different Masters... the most challenging is that of transparency. lol... big surprise! Opening up has always been hard to me. But there are times I just don't feel that you need to be bothered... I know that as a Master/slave relationship it shouldn't be my decision what is important or not... I'm not really sure yet where that line is drawn. While we are here I have come to a realization... Guardian Master is a confusing term for many. While you and I know that you are my Master and everything that goes with that I do believe the Title of Guardian is clearer for those around. I'd love to discuss this further at some time.
Well it's getting late... so off to bed for tonight.
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