10/12/10

"What do I want?"
I've been asked that question so many times and have had answers in my head but have never sat down and written them out... so here goes!

In life:
In today's society we are supposed to be in a good career, make good money and be successful. For me that is not important. I make enough to be comfortable, I have a small savings account that allows me the little extras I like ... that make me happy. My job is fun and the people are great. So being content is a big plus.
In Health:
I am alive and not in pain... what more can I ask for? OK so I'm not the picture of perfect health... I wasn't made that way. I was made to have challenges. Being a diabetic offers that. The point I believe is that I take care of myself... I eat well and exercise - I don't smoke, do drugs or abuse my body... I am at peace with that.
In Religion:
This becomes a sore topic on the home front! I was born and raised in a Catholic household. But never accepted in my religion... let's face it gays are not accepted openly in a lot of places. But my faith is strong. Master Steve has guided me to Buddhism. A simple straight forward faith. Be true to yourself and to those around you... be who you are! I consider myself a Christian Buddhist and happy with that choise.
In Relationship:
What I want used to be clearly defined as to what I want in a partner. I still find myself longing for that closeness but sway rapidly when I am centered on my slavery. It confuses me sometimes to the point that I opt to have nothing. All the while knowing in my heart that I need someone.
In a Master:
What I want mostly is someone to lead me on my journey. Someone that is willing while on this journey to accept what I am willing to give him. Someone that will accept the service I can give, someone that will accept my heart. A play-partner, someone that will learn to read my movement and allow our time together to be a dance of energy, someone that will allow a deep heart-fealt connection to happen. Someone that will touch the depths of my soul and only ask for me to grow.
In my slavery:
I set my standards very high when it comes to what I want... I want only the best. I want that connection, I want that love, I want that peace, I want the knowledge of the ages, I want it all and know that I will only get what I am willing to give... so I give everything.