For what was supposed to be a quiet weekend I'm sure glad to be at work to get some rest. Plan was to get some needed house stuff done then go out sunday as a family... well we did but wow... it was just non-stop!
From the Well:
To Listen and to Hear… two words that are so often used interchangeably… but shouldn’t because the mean different things… one can Hear noise or words but very often don’t listen to them. How often have people asked did you hear that bird? You may have heard a noise but didn’t listen to distinguish the sound of a particular bird… what a loss. How many times have you heard the words spoken by a person and still been accused of misunderstanding them? Were you listening to the intention of the words? Some, including myself feel that this happens in writing too.
Last week you said that I worry too much about the future… I agree I do. Do you know why I do? Not many do… My first three Masters that I served weren’t really Masters at all Dominants ok… that they were. They wanted a houseboy, someone to clean, do laundry, do lawn work… that was it. There was no emotional tie allowed… back then I was a servant not a slave as we know it. I was collared… wrongly but collared none-the-less. It wasn’t what I needed or was looking for but not knowing better allowed it to happen… Thus a lot of confusion and hurt. The fourth began by building a relationship and wanting the houseboy aspect too… it worked for a while… but then turned. When things weren’t done to his liking he became abusive… what I then saw as punishment quickly turned to abuse… I was spanked beyond any limits we set… and I was used hard sexually. In one simple term abused. I finally took all I could and took off the collar and gave it back, never to turn and look back. Master #5 went back to the houseboy stuff and that ended quickly… then came Master Larry… well enough said there.
So as I enter this relationship yes I’m going to worry about the future. There’s more to me than a houseboy… You said something when you stood before the family and spoke on May 28th… you said that you saw a need for me to belong … a need to be loved… you were right more than you knew. I’ve served 6 Masters… not one has loved me for the slave that I know is inside.
Slave matt asked if I was ok last week, I told him that I felt lost… I felt like I was in a tunnel with two openings… the one behind me leads to that empty, alone, useless feeling … in front was the sign of peace and happiness, being truly loved as a slave, having that Master that would say from their heart that they are proud to own me as theirs… and I’m somewhere in the middle with no path… Let's face it, I'm 44 soon to be 45 and have yet to realize that which i seek...
In one of my last journals I brought up the notion of a contract… why? To answer questions such as what is the definition of Guardian Master and “slave in service”? What do those terms mean in regards to you and to me? Where is your line drawn between slave and slave in service? What kind of relationship do you envision between yourself and a slave in service? Or is there one?
You stated that I worry too much… and you are right… now do you better understand why I do? In my life and job it is up to me to see the big picture or at least understand the focus of the picture. When I don’t have that I either wander aimlessly or worry. It’s part of who I am.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
6/22/2010
Been away from the computer for a few days... just needed a break from life in general - a lot going on to think about and a lot to do. It's hard to believe I've been here for over a year now things have flown by so fast. As I do my a review for work I can barely believe how much I have accomplished over the 365 day... taking piles of documents stacked on the floor to an organized office complete with a conference space. Electronic logs have been completed and the whole thing maintained. Certified payroll that hadn't been maintained for 2 years has been complied, filed and maintained and the room in a great organized way... bosses are happy and so is my employers!
From the well:
Today I feel a great sense of accomplishment here at work... I walked in to utter chaos and after learning the process and terminology have organized the office to a level they apparently are not used to... it makes me feel real good knowing that I have that ability!
From the well:
Today I feel a great sense of accomplishment here at work... I walked in to utter chaos and after learning the process and terminology have organized the office to a level they apparently are not used to... it makes me feel real good knowing that I have that ability!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
6/16/2010
Zen! What more can I say... today is a super busy day but through the practice of zenful work I am ahead of schedule and the bosses love it! before they finish asking I hand them the work! talk about antisipitory service! Woof!
I'm looking forward to spending time with Master and the guys... seems like so long since I've seen them...
From the well...
Just watching how a zenful spirit helps get through the hussle and bussle of daily life... wondering why I keep forgetting the practice!
I'm looking forward to spending time with Master and the guys... seems like so long since I've seen them...
From the well...
Just watching how a zenful spirit helps get through the hussle and bussle of daily life... wondering why I keep forgetting the practice!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
6/15/2010
The spirits have indeed been quiet these past few days. Being intune with the spirits of those past has been a blessing in many ways but it also leads to questions concerning times of quiet. Where do they go during these quiet times? what do they do? is something else going on that is blocking my being intune with them? Things that make you go hmmmm....
From the well:
Being intune with theings around me is a major factor in my slavery. People ask how I keep up with all the small things that makes my service seem seemless it's just that I am intune with my surroundings... when things are no longer needed or are in the way I get rid of it ... the less confusion the better the experience... or at least that is what I have come to see over the years.
So mindfulness, being intune, being aware... functions that are saught out by Masters? sometimes... but not often ...
From the well:
Being intune with theings around me is a major factor in my slavery. People ask how I keep up with all the small things that makes my service seem seemless it's just that I am intune with my surroundings... when things are no longer needed or are in the way I get rid of it ... the less confusion the better the experience... or at least that is what I have come to see over the years.
So mindfulness, being intune, being aware... functions that are saught out by Masters? sometimes... but not often ...
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
6/12/2010
From the well:
As I sit here Saturday finally quieting down and enjoying the peace that surrounds me I find my mind looking at where I am and what I'm feeling... I wish I could say that it's a comfortable place but it's not.
While I enjoy the family and the service I am still feeling lost and without direction. I realize relationships take time to build. I know I am not one of Masters slaves. I know I'm part of the family. but what does all that mean? Guardian Master? What does that entail? What does Master expect from me? Go over do some work in and out of the house, have dinner, do dishes go home? sounds like a houseboy to me...
I feel like I'm in a tunnel. to my back is lost, nothingness, and empty feelings... in front is warmth, being owned, cherished, a part of a unit that is family. But I stand stuck in the middle with no understanding of what is expected of me... I'm almost there but not... I'm treated as part... but not... is this what limbo feels like?
Where do I belong?
I feel that maybe a contract spelling out where and what I am and Master is might help... naybe that will allow me to view the big picture... and maybe it will clarify where I'm heading... where this relationship is heading... where life is taking me.
As I sit here Saturday finally quieting down and enjoying the peace that surrounds me I find my mind looking at where I am and what I'm feeling... I wish I could say that it's a comfortable place but it's not.
While I enjoy the family and the service I am still feeling lost and without direction. I realize relationships take time to build. I know I am not one of Masters slaves. I know I'm part of the family. but what does all that mean? Guardian Master? What does that entail? What does Master expect from me? Go over do some work in and out of the house, have dinner, do dishes go home? sounds like a houseboy to me...
I feel like I'm in a tunnel. to my back is lost, nothingness, and empty feelings... in front is warmth, being owned, cherished, a part of a unit that is family. But I stand stuck in the middle with no understanding of what is expected of me... I'm almost there but not... I'm treated as part... but not... is this what limbo feels like?
Where do I belong?
I feel that maybe a contract spelling out where and what I am and Master is might help... naybe that will allow me to view the big picture... and maybe it will clarify where I'm heading... where this relationship is heading... where life is taking me.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
6/10/10
Real busy day at work today... but I like it that way... looking forward to getting out at 2 instead of 3 =) was given the duty of secretary at the MAsT meeting tuesday... so I updated that information along with filing the meeting information... I'm feeling much better about taking on more responsibility in regards to MAsT and other community functions. I do think the year out of the director/secretary/deputy/teasurer chair was a good choice! Master and sl david headed out to SELF today... if all goes well he will return with my vest... things are finally slowing down and I am looking forward to a very quiet weekend at home to catch up on some much needed rest.
From the well:
I've been looking at there things were, where things are, and where I am envisioning things will be... I know that for me this can be a dangerous thing to do. where I've been was a dark point in my journey but one that has lead to a clarity of the journey ahead. I learned the lesson of communication. I've learned that while communication is needed that communication needs to be face to face... and heart felt. there I am is a place of comfort. I enjoy working with sl matt and sl david. I enjoy the comfort of Masters home and I enjoy the peace I feal around Master. Life is good! Where can I see things going... I purposely left doors open... unless things change drastically I can see petitioning Master for a slave position with his house... but not till next year when things are more stable with mom and dad. That is and will be the only thing slowing the process.
From the well:
I've been looking at there things were, where things are, and where I am envisioning things will be... I know that for me this can be a dangerous thing to do. where I've been was a dark point in my journey but one that has lead to a clarity of the journey ahead. I learned the lesson of communication. I've learned that while communication is needed that communication needs to be face to face... and heart felt. there I am is a place of comfort. I enjoy working with sl matt and sl david. I enjoy the comfort of Masters home and I enjoy the peace I feal around Master. Life is good! Where can I see things going... I purposely left doors open... unless things change drastically I can see petitioning Master for a slave position with his house... but not till next year when things are more stable with mom and dad. That is and will be the only thing slowing the process.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
6/9/10
Not a lot to talk about today so I’m just going to the well…
From the Well:
Today’s well is a continuation of last nights MAsT meeting… BDSM in an M/s relationship
As I listened to the group talk about what it meant to them so much resonated with me. We have so little one-on-one time together between work, meetings, appointments and preparing for upcoming stuff every second becomes so important. Things like hugs, a touch or a short chat means the world to me… and when that rare moment comes when we can spend alone time in the dungeon as Master/slave I’m sure it will be as magical as ever…
For me the connection during whatever the scene may be becomes the most important part. The touch of a Master has always been very powerful as well as very sensual… together it does as Master David stated… made us one for that 15 minutes or so…
From the Well:
Today’s well is a continuation of last nights MAsT meeting… BDSM in an M/s relationship
As I listened to the group talk about what it meant to them so much resonated with me. We have so little one-on-one time together between work, meetings, appointments and preparing for upcoming stuff every second becomes so important. Things like hugs, a touch or a short chat means the world to me… and when that rare moment comes when we can spend alone time in the dungeon as Master/slave I’m sure it will be as magical as ever…
For me the connection during whatever the scene may be becomes the most important part. The touch of a Master has always been very powerful as well as very sensual… together it does as Master David stated… made us one for that 15 minutes or so…
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
06/08/10
Quantum time…
I wonder often how it is that when you are having fun the day goes quick and when you are bored it slows down… Time seems to have its own mind… the same happens every time I enter Master’s home except in the opposite way… when I am “having fun” serving – time slows and I’m allowed to enjoy for longer periods… I know this is all a mind game and that time doesn’t change… so what is it that causes that duality of time?
I venture a guess to be that of energy… not power type energy but that energy of the heart. They say when you are in love time stops… sound familiar? When I serve and do what I love – time stops or slows as the case may be… the universe allows me to revel in that feeling and enjoy every minute of my serving time.
From the well…
From the well today I pull that feeling I get when I am faced with leaving the house after serving for a few plus days… that overwhelming feeling of loss knowing that I have to return to the real time stream or work, family, agitations and frustrations and leave the calm and peace where my heart is happiest… I’ve come to view Master’s house as home… a place of quiet security, safety as it should be… I have no fears there, no worries only peace, love and a full heart through service.
It’s interesting that people ask me why I choose to serve… my answer has always been that it offers a peace a place of zen… then when asked why Master Taino? I’ve come to answer the same thing… he offers a place to serve and a peace that fills the soul… what more do I need….
I wonder often how it is that when you are having fun the day goes quick and when you are bored it slows down… Time seems to have its own mind… the same happens every time I enter Master’s home except in the opposite way… when I am “having fun” serving – time slows and I’m allowed to enjoy for longer periods… I know this is all a mind game and that time doesn’t change… so what is it that causes that duality of time?
I venture a guess to be that of energy… not power type energy but that energy of the heart. They say when you are in love time stops… sound familiar? When I serve and do what I love – time stops or slows as the case may be… the universe allows me to revel in that feeling and enjoy every minute of my serving time.
From the well…
From the well today I pull that feeling I get when I am faced with leaving the house after serving for a few plus days… that overwhelming feeling of loss knowing that I have to return to the real time stream or work, family, agitations and frustrations and leave the calm and peace where my heart is happiest… I’ve come to view Master’s house as home… a place of quiet security, safety as it should be… I have no fears there, no worries only peace, love and a full heart through service.
It’s interesting that people ask me why I choose to serve… my answer has always been that it offers a peace a place of zen… then when asked why Master Taino? I’ve come to answer the same thing… he offers a place to serve and a peace that fills the soul… what more do I need….
Monday, June 7, 2010
6/7/10
As I sit here today after a very full weekend I can’t help but look back at how enjoyable it all was. Friday, even though I wasn’t feeling all that great worked through the feelings and got what needed to be completed done… it was so awesome to see Ms. Khiki and slave jez again. Saturday was a busy but great day! Starting off the day with Master David’s erotic whipping was a great way to start the day, then piercing with Ms. Khiki, next up was the panel discussion on service slaves – we had a great class and good discussion and lastly Mentoring with Ms. Khiki – I really enjoyed that class especially having slave kellie in Florida asking me to mentor him… argh… after a few discussion it comes down to answer his questions and point him in the right direction great… I just don’t have the time for a full mentorship in my life right now… it wouldn’t be fair to him or me. Dinner with Master David and Ms. Khiki, slave justin and everyone was just great… what a great family! Sunday started out early but moved fast. The clean-up/set-up went great and the teamwork we all had worked out just great. I was surprised that Master David chose Sunday to whip me… we had talked a few times about doing a whipping scene “in the future”. Guess his “future” and mine differ in time! But it was very nice and I really enjoyed his work! Lol and still do today… the clean-up went great with lots of help and dinner finished off the weekend on a high! All in all an enjoyable weekend!
This week will be a fairly quiet one in my world… work , work, and more work! But I love it!
I’m going to bring back a segment that I used to have on my blog and for some reason stopped it. It’s called “From the well”.
FROM THE WELL
I usually speak to myself in my blogs, but I feel in this area I can speak directly to you Master.
This area isn’t always easy to write nor I’m sure isn’t always easy to read…
This past weekend I was quietly hoping to be flogged by you… to spend that little bit of one on one time with you… but after seeing how distant slave matt became Saturday with the influx of people in the house I knew that he needed time with you and that was more important . I saw this to be very prevalent Saturday night while assisting in the prep of the meal… he let slave jez know that he was disappearing for some time… then again after dinner he stuck to chatting with justin, jez and the guys and staying somewhat distant… I knew then that it would be best to allow matt the time he needed with you and just keep busy and I was ok with that. I saw matts quietness start again Sunday morning so I opted to just not engage with him… we both went on our ways and did what we needed to do… I watched quietly throughout the day as you spent time with him on and off knowing that’s what he needed but still hoping for some of that time with you. It felt nice to have Master David step in and share some one-on-one time with me Sunday. He filled some of that void that I had longed for back on Friday… and I thanked him profusely for that time however… still missing that “Master time”. When it came time to leave after dinner I knelt before you… you hugged me and didn’t let go… it filled that void that was there… Knowing that over the weekend I had served to my best and was appreciated filled that empty feeling that had welled up…
Something that you may have seen in me or may not have seen… I don’t ask to be played with… for me that is a gift for you to offer. I’ve been asked why I don’t ask for what I want… I suppose it goes back to my upbringing of not begging for something I really want. I was born into a French, Catholic, Military household. Dad was an Aviation Electrician with the Blue Angels for the majority of his career with the Navy. My sister and I were raised such that you could ask once and that was it… there was no begging or whining period. Children were pretty much meant to be seen (and in short spurts at that) and not heard… so begging has never been something done
This week will be a fairly quiet one in my world… work , work, and more work! But I love it!
I’m going to bring back a segment that I used to have on my blog and for some reason stopped it. It’s called “From the well”.
FROM THE WELL
I usually speak to myself in my blogs, but I feel in this area I can speak directly to you Master.
This area isn’t always easy to write nor I’m sure isn’t always easy to read…
This past weekend I was quietly hoping to be flogged by you… to spend that little bit of one on one time with you… but after seeing how distant slave matt became Saturday with the influx of people in the house I knew that he needed time with you and that was more important . I saw this to be very prevalent Saturday night while assisting in the prep of the meal… he let slave jez know that he was disappearing for some time… then again after dinner he stuck to chatting with justin, jez and the guys and staying somewhat distant… I knew then that it would be best to allow matt the time he needed with you and just keep busy and I was ok with that. I saw matts quietness start again Sunday morning so I opted to just not engage with him… we both went on our ways and did what we needed to do… I watched quietly throughout the day as you spent time with him on and off knowing that’s what he needed but still hoping for some of that time with you. It felt nice to have Master David step in and share some one-on-one time with me Sunday. He filled some of that void that I had longed for back on Friday… and I thanked him profusely for that time however… still missing that “Master time”. When it came time to leave after dinner I knelt before you… you hugged me and didn’t let go… it filled that void that was there… Knowing that over the weekend I had served to my best and was appreciated filled that empty feeling that had welled up…
Something that you may have seen in me or may not have seen… I don’t ask to be played with… for me that is a gift for you to offer. I’ve been asked why I don’t ask for what I want… I suppose it goes back to my upbringing of not begging for something I really want. I was born into a French, Catholic, Military household. Dad was an Aviation Electrician with the Blue Angels for the majority of his career with the Navy. My sister and I were raised such that you could ask once and that was it… there was no begging or whining period. Children were pretty much meant to be seen (and in short spurts at that) and not heard… so begging has never been something done
Friday, June 4, 2010
6/4/10
This has been a rough week... Monday (memorial day) was spent with family... midway through the hot day we hear CLICK - BANG!!! uh oh! there went the AC unit... so after a quick call to the repair man we learn that the compressor blew... ARGH! Tuesday was fairly uneventful... Wednesday I had a doctors appointment.. back on the Actos for the sugan.. but now they also add high blood pressure meds and high chloresterol med... ok.. makes sense. I picked them up wednesday night and take the three as prescribed.. hmmm no problems yet... 11:pm rolls around... I wake up soaked! legs cramping, stomach cramps, feels like the room is 200 degrees and I can't breath... not a good thing! ended up spending 4 hours in emergency with a reaction to the high chloresterol meds... Thursday I took the day off and slept... Friday has started out ok... I feel a bit better but still not totally right... hopefully things will even out for the weekend. Today after work I report to Master Taino's for the weekend and DC Leather Pride... sitting on a panel with slavette and slave jez... that should be fun especially since we haven't heard whe the outline for the class is... fun fun fun
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
6/1/10
It's been one weekend I won't soon forget!
Friday morning I loaded the car and headed to work early... I wanted to get the cake inside because of the heat. got it inside and started to remove the plastic wrap and oh crap... it stuck to the picture... so after a few calls got anne and steve to pick up some frosting and a new picture... got it repaired... whew... left work and headed to Master's for the weekend.
Started to work when I got there.. first on the list was to get the canopy up and secured... with help from David and Eddy we could check that off the list...then dinner with two friends, M Andreas son and another guy... honestly don't remember either of their names... friday night Master asked for my chain collar to measure the new one... so I gave it to him... not knowing that I wouldn't be getting it back...
Friday night was difficult... 8 months around my neck... it was hard to sleep... was up early Saturday morning knowing that I had a lot of prep work to do for the gathering at 4pm... I stayed quiet and worked all day preparing veggies, fish, mushrooms, etc.... I stayed quiet because of the emotions that were flooding my system... doubt, what was I doing again? how soon till I get hurt by another relationship? how was this one going to differ? so many emotions...
I understand better now the separation and cleansing that needed to take place before the new collar was placed around my neck. At 3:30 the first of the guests arrived Sir Ross and slave martha... the other new member of the family! I look forward to getting to know them better!... Ms. Khiki and slave jez arrived next... I love them both! Master Jake and slave laura, Lady Lynette and slave llamb, Mistress Mary and slave chris... and finally Lord Brick and slave lara... that's when the love of a family hit me... such beautiful people... such a great family... and I was soon to be a full member of that family.
Dinner was ready for 6pm as directed... and all went well... salmon fillets, garlic roasted potatoes, veggie kabobs, stuffed portabello mushroom caps, salad, and macarroni salad, hors'derves, munchies, drinks, desert was strawberry shortcake and watermellon... what a feast! Everyone left the table full... what a blessing!
After dinner Master came to the kitchen and asked me to come outside... so I dried my hands and followed... I was reqested to stand behind Master... I knew what was going to happen... was I ready? Master spoke about how I got there... and what we discussed then added that he saw one thing that I needed that wasn't discussed... love... my heart stopped... he understood... I heard him chock up and I could feel his heart and his emotion in accepting me to his family...maybe this would be different... I knelt before him and he placed a new collar around my neck and locked it on... it initially weighed heavy but soon settled in... the family patch and name tag came next... I wish there were proper words to express the warmth and love I felt from so many present in person and present in spirit...
Sir Ross was then brought into the family... not without emotion... part of the ceremony Master passed on his original pair of boots... 20 years of history... and so the Leather tradition continues... Sir Ross earned that leather... what a moment.
we all spent some time just talking... and cleaning up for the festivities to move to the crucible... where I had an awesome time... Master started with slave matt... what a beautiful flogging... then he flogged me... It was a great feeling to have my Master flogg me... what an honor... but then I found I had a dance card... Mistress Mary requested play time and so did Lady Lynette... I barely had time to recoup from the flogging when I offered myself up to Mistress Mary... what an awesome whipping she gave... lick lick bite... bite bite bite... lol... beautiful marks for two days... Woof... but it wasn't over... Lady Lynette was still there patiently waiting... she informed me that her toys were in the car already... but she still had her hands and those nails... wow... she brought me to my knees... what hights she brought me to... but was always there to help me down to a safe place... It hit time to go home... upon arrival I finished up the kitchen stuff and matt made breakfast... then to bed...
Sunday started a new day for me... a new path on the journey... breakfast went well and clean up was a breeze... but as I prepared to leave Master handed me back my old collar... I stopped in my tracks and knew what I needed to do... do after the pictures I asked Master to speak privately... I thanked him for everything he did for me over the weekend... then handed the collar back to him... he asked its origin... I thought for a bit then told him it was security, safety for me... that I didn't need it or want it because what was around my neck now was all the security and safety that I need. He accepted it back... and it was time to say good bye until next friday for DC Leather Pride...
and so "The Journey Continues"
Friday morning I loaded the car and headed to work early... I wanted to get the cake inside because of the heat. got it inside and started to remove the plastic wrap and oh crap... it stuck to the picture... so after a few calls got anne and steve to pick up some frosting and a new picture... got it repaired... whew... left work and headed to Master's for the weekend.
Started to work when I got there.. first on the list was to get the canopy up and secured... with help from David and Eddy we could check that off the list...then dinner with two friends, M Andreas son and another guy... honestly don't remember either of their names... friday night Master asked for my chain collar to measure the new one... so I gave it to him... not knowing that I wouldn't be getting it back...
Friday night was difficult... 8 months around my neck... it was hard to sleep... was up early Saturday morning knowing that I had a lot of prep work to do for the gathering at 4pm... I stayed quiet and worked all day preparing veggies, fish, mushrooms, etc.... I stayed quiet because of the emotions that were flooding my system... doubt, what was I doing again? how soon till I get hurt by another relationship? how was this one going to differ? so many emotions...
I understand better now the separation and cleansing that needed to take place before the new collar was placed around my neck. At 3:30 the first of the guests arrived Sir Ross and slave martha... the other new member of the family! I look forward to getting to know them better!... Ms. Khiki and slave jez arrived next... I love them both! Master Jake and slave laura, Lady Lynette and slave llamb, Mistress Mary and slave chris... and finally Lord Brick and slave lara... that's when the love of a family hit me... such beautiful people... such a great family... and I was soon to be a full member of that family.
Dinner was ready for 6pm as directed... and all went well... salmon fillets, garlic roasted potatoes, veggie kabobs, stuffed portabello mushroom caps, salad, and macarroni salad, hors'derves, munchies, drinks, desert was strawberry shortcake and watermellon... what a feast! Everyone left the table full... what a blessing!
After dinner Master came to the kitchen and asked me to come outside... so I dried my hands and followed... I was reqested to stand behind Master... I knew what was going to happen... was I ready? Master spoke about how I got there... and what we discussed then added that he saw one thing that I needed that wasn't discussed... love... my heart stopped... he understood... I heard him chock up and I could feel his heart and his emotion in accepting me to his family...maybe this would be different... I knelt before him and he placed a new collar around my neck and locked it on... it initially weighed heavy but soon settled in... the family patch and name tag came next... I wish there were proper words to express the warmth and love I felt from so many present in person and present in spirit...
Sir Ross was then brought into the family... not without emotion... part of the ceremony Master passed on his original pair of boots... 20 years of history... and so the Leather tradition continues... Sir Ross earned that leather... what a moment.
we all spent some time just talking... and cleaning up for the festivities to move to the crucible... where I had an awesome time... Master started with slave matt... what a beautiful flogging... then he flogged me... It was a great feeling to have my Master flogg me... what an honor... but then I found I had a dance card... Mistress Mary requested play time and so did Lady Lynette... I barely had time to recoup from the flogging when I offered myself up to Mistress Mary... what an awesome whipping she gave... lick lick bite... bite bite bite... lol... beautiful marks for two days... Woof... but it wasn't over... Lady Lynette was still there patiently waiting... she informed me that her toys were in the car already... but she still had her hands and those nails... wow... she brought me to my knees... what hights she brought me to... but was always there to help me down to a safe place... It hit time to go home... upon arrival I finished up the kitchen stuff and matt made breakfast... then to bed...
Sunday started a new day for me... a new path on the journey... breakfast went well and clean up was a breeze... but as I prepared to leave Master handed me back my old collar... I stopped in my tracks and knew what I needed to do... do after the pictures I asked Master to speak privately... I thanked him for everything he did for me over the weekend... then handed the collar back to him... he asked its origin... I thought for a bit then told him it was security, safety for me... that I didn't need it or want it because what was around my neck now was all the security and safety that I need. He accepted it back... and it was time to say good bye until next friday for DC Leather Pride...
and so "The Journey Continues"
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