It's been a while... processing tends to be an unexact science, there is no telling just how long it will take.
This past weekend served to prove something I've been feeling over the past few weeks. This weekend I was able to spend quite a bit of time with slave henry. During the movie we watched in the slave session I sat in one of the easy chairs with henry at my feet... he moved my leg to wrap his body and placed his head on my lap, I took the time to caress his head and shoulders and just be there for him as he was for me. We spent the majority of time in that embrace as we watched the shows. Nothing more than that happened but I realized that indeed my life has been empty since my ex and I separated ways. I guess that is what I see missing in my current relationship with Master. while the service part of my being is fulfilled beyond imagination the other side... the emotional connection side just isn't there. I can't blame him and I understand why it is. But I am still left empty.
I have been chatting with a guy in Alexandria. Ric, 49 years old, not in to the M/s thing (as he put it) but is supportive of my need to be a slave in my day to day life. I'm actually glad he isn't in the life because it will be easier to keep the two separated... Master will be Master and boyfriend will be boyfriend... if that happens.
Master Jake mentioned that he hasn't forgotten about our chat and definately wants to continue it. I took the liberty to ask him for a play date down the road... I'm sure he will request this through Master first which is fine with me. I'd really like to see slave chris, slave matt, Master jake and myself get together on a monthly basis to do Tai Chi or whatever form of Martial arts it works out to be... and maybe even work on smaller groups more local. It seems that the Martial Arts movement lends itself to the focus and structure that compliments the M/s relationship... not to mention the zen and mindfulness that is instilled in the practice.
Well I guess that is enough for now it's time for work...
