I know it's been a while since I've done any blogging... I really want to try and get back to it on a more regular basis.
There's been a lot of "stuff" going on. Stuff that I've said and feel needs to be expanded upon, stuff that I've heard, seen or experienced. Even stuff that I would like to experience... just a lot of stuff.
I was asked a question yesterday that made me stop and really reflect on the past two weeks. I was asked what I would say if I was asked if I felt Beau would be a good fit for the family. I simply responded that I am leaving my options open at this time but it made me really stop and think about my feeling concerning him. I know that you see some of the stuff that he does but I don't think you see the other side, that being what he doesn't do or better yet what he doesn't seem to get a grasp on. Let me back up and say that I do understand that beau is new at this slavery thing. I also realize that not everyone is service oriented and/or taught to do the most basic of things like dishes, ironing, cleaning, laundry and cooking... let's face it he may be artistically trained but the basics of housekeeping eludes him. I also know that I tend to be a bit anal about how the house should be kept for you... I have explained to beau more than once how the house is a direct reflection on Master and that we never know when Master J or one of the many other Masters may just drop in. There is no reason that the house can't be kept in tip top shape... it just takes a little work. I do worry about beau and his beliefs for being here along with his attitude towards you. Beau has said on more than one occasion that he is here solely to fill your physical needs... sex slave is the term he has used. I would put little belief in this except that his attitude towards his looks oversteps the need for him to assist in work that needs to be accomplished. Let me explain that... Prior to your chat on Saturday there was a lot of little things to finish up... I was busy doing that when I realized that beau had disappeared. I went looking for him to find him primping and preening himself in the restroom. I expressed my need for assistance and was told that he "needed to prepare himself to look good for Master"... I informed him that he needed to assist in preparing the area and food for the guests that were on their way FIRST then get dressed and ready... (note: I was still in just shorts at this time). The week before on our way to the "Formal Dining" class I was asked about stopping so he could pick up a few things... I told him I was planning on stopping at Target to get some under the bed storage units for the room to help with overflow. I asked what he needed and he said hair dye... I asked the purpose of it and was told that "since Master liked Puerto Rican boys he felt it necessary to assume the look of that for him". Maybe on the west coast that is what it is all about but on the east coast being a slave is about how a slave acts and serves not about what the slave looks like. In short vanity on a grand style.... don't misunderstand, there is nothing wrong with looking good but when it over steps service then the focus needs to be redirected ... or at least that's what I feel. So back to the question, I can honestly say that while he may fulfill your physical needs I personally don't feel that he can deal with the pressure of constant functions along with daily household duties. As I mentioned I am leaving my options open... maybe with the training and a 3 plus month internship may prove him able to deal but I can honestly say that I doubt he will make the cut.
Other stuff... The leather community... I can honestly say that I don't understand what the draw is but as of late I have been toying with the need to learn about the leather community in the area. I know that you have said that you don't feel a calling to participate in the leather community but I would like to learn more about it and experience the lifechoice as it is. I would like your guidance with this if you want or if you don't if I could have your blessings to venture out on my own... we can chat more about this later...
I do believe this weekend will go well... It will be nice to be back to the service that I long for and am used to... I really enjoy serving with Ashley in the kitchen.
Well Master, I guess that covers it for now... I'm sure there will be more tomorrow... :)
